I have to do something. I just don't know how. I can't sit here any longer just wondering; I need courage and a heck of a lot of it. This has the potential to change things forever, for better or for worse; I don't know. I want to do it soon, really soon. I need to know either way, which way to go. Whether to continue being naive and hopeful or to get over it and move on. I just hope it turns out the way I want it, the way I think it might.


Lauren