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Lauren  

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So what.

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 6, 2008, 7:24 PM
I guess more and more each day lately I've been realizing things. A lot of things actually, about life and death, my future and my past, past, present, the what if's, the coulda's, shoulda's and woulda's. About who I am and what I am made of. I'm defining myself and in doing so, I'm realizing exactly what it is that I have been doing. And I wish I could take it back. I almost wish that I could be able to take back all of what it is that I have done. But the key word in that sentence is "almost". Because a long time ago I learned not to regret, because regret is pointless when you can't change things. Instead, I take things as a lesson learned and move on.

You see the thing is there was this boy, a summer boy of course. Well, he turned my world upside-down. It's just now that I'm finally turning it right side up again. As I'm redefining my world, I'm realizing just how much he changed me, and I'm mad. I'm mad that I let myself be changed that much. I realized that it wasn't his fault either, it was mine, for letting myself be changed. For trying so hard to be something that I totally wasn't. People kept telling me that I wasn't myself, that they missed the old me and I missed that girl too. Well, I'm here to say shes back and I realized that only a few days ago. When I was being a total goofball with my best friends, I realized that I was back, the girl that we all missed. And a single look from my sister, I realized that I was me again. And I don't think that I've been happier in a really long time.

I am however mad still, that I changed for a boy. I just wish that everyone could realize, especially a certain person that love dearly, that she is doing the exact same thing that I did. She is losing herself, but she doesn't realize it, and if she does, she likes the new her better. But I miss the real her.

But part of me that I missed the most was the little girl that I've always been. See, part of me that went missing that everyone missed the most was my playfulness. I am one of those people that can act like a complete idiot and public and not care because I'm with my best friends. I can be exactly who I am and someone say that they hate my guts and I can look them dead in the eye and say "SO WHAT". That was the girl that disappeared as well. But I'm back, the playfulness, the desire, the joy, the blondness, she's back, all of her.

I am once again myself. I realize that I am me, that is exactly who I am and that is all that I can be. I'm just simply me. :D

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Lauren Noela

  • Mood: Cheerful
  • Listening to: http://youtube.com/watch?v=TRfSbtCFKQ4
  • Reading: Twilight, again. :D
  • Watching: Must Love Dogs
  • Eating: Ben and Jerry's Phish Food
  • Drinking: Water

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 16
  • Current Residence: Honestly, I live in my own world.
  • Interests: Hanging out with friends, Reading, Being a Beach Bum, Writing, Talking, Movies, Running, Dancing
  • Favourite movie: Beaches, Breakfast at Tiffany's, RENT, The Notebook
  • Favourite band or musician: Aly and AJ, The Decemberists, Mat Kearny, Josh Groban, Train
  • Favourite genre of music: I tolerate everything except rap, my taste in music overall is simply random
  • Favourite poet or writer: Emily Dickinson, my friends: Paul, Lindsey, and a few others
  • Favourite photographer: Paul
  • MP3 player of choice: IPOD!!!!
  • Personal Quote: "When you finally find someone to always fall back on, never let them go"
  • Tools of the Trade: keyboard, paper and pencil(or pen works too)

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~PiratePenguinFreak:iconPiratePenguinFreak: Mar 24, 2008, 12:49:04 PM
thanks for the fav! :hug:

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If Only We Could Write Our Feelings Down On Paper... The We Could Ball Them Up And THROW Them AWAY
~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Mar 23, 2008, 6:51:38 PM
its cool. love u!!!!

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~prettyinpink03:iconprettyinpink03: Mar 23, 2008, 11:44:30 AM
I'm sorry about that. Happy Easter though! Call me when you can. Love you.

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~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Mar 17, 2008, 12:55:27 PM
ok. mamas sick so mabye tonite? love ya....

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~prettyinpink03:iconprettyinpink03: Mar 16, 2008, 6:41:58 PM
Lol, yeah. Yes. Love you too. Call me when you can talk so I can tell ALL about it.

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~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Mar 13, 2008, 5:21:21 PM
excited bout prom!!!!???? i would b!!!!! it butthole going? jw. love ya!!!! :-p

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Mar 10, 2008, 10:03:35 AM
ok i was jus making sure. i will as soon as i can. love u 2!!!

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~prettyinpink03:iconprettyinpink03: Mar 9, 2008, 5:55:57 PM
No, I'm not mad at you, I promise. It's ok, you have a life, I totally understand. You're a busy girl too. Ok, call whenever you can. Love you.
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~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Mar 7, 2008, 7:07:48 PM
r u mad at me? im sry i didnt call u bac... life is crazy!!!!! i'll try and call u sunday... i love ya!!!!

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Mar 4, 2008, 11:42:59 AM
love yaz!!!!!!!!!

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Feb 19, 2008, 8:47:03 PM
haha love u too

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~prettyinpink03:iconprettyinpink03: Feb 19, 2008, 8:24:55 PM
Ok, lol. I love you babe.

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~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Feb 18, 2008, 3:13:26 PM
cuz u just r!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~prettyinpink03:iconprettyinpink03: Feb 17, 2008, 2:47:38 PM
Aww. :D I love you too! Why am I the best exactly? :heart:
~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Feb 13, 2008, 9:43:11 AM
i love u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ur the best!!!!!!!!!

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Feb 7, 2008, 1:44:56 PM
hey girl!!!!!!!!!! i miss u. i got 2 hugs from him wed but the first was kinda akward then the second wasnt it was werid...... love u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Feb 4, 2008, 6:33:52 PM
hey guess what..... im coming to ur skool wed.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for ur career fair!!!!!!! im so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Jan 27, 2008, 12:13:16 PM
so yea im about to spit fire!!!!!!ive gotten 2 messages from him in a span of three day and then this morning he acts like nothing happened!!!!!!!!!!!he was hugging me and holding me like i want to b held. so i dont know wether 2 b mad at him or what. the way he holds me is amazing and im so afriad that im going to lose him or push him away....

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Jan 2, 2008, 7:57:22 PM
hello!!!!!!!!!!!! the bonfire was great!!!!! im totally in love with kris now!!!!!!!!!!!ill tell u all about it later!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Dec 24, 2007, 7:41:05 PM
hope ur having a great time ill call u tomm. and ull have to tell me ALL BOUT IT LOVE YA

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Nov 6, 2007, 1:05:29 PM
aw im sry... me to i have 3 papers do i science and i think 1 in english.. i think..haha

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~prettyinpink03:iconprettyinpink03: Nov 5, 2007, 9:16:03 PM
I'm happy that you finally got one! School is too time consuming to be boring. I have soo much homework in a day it's not even funny.

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~Scarlett-O-Hara:iconScarlett-O-Hara: Nov 5, 2007, 9:44:45 AM
hey girly!!! im so excited about having 1 of these!!! anyways hope skools not 2 boring!!! haha

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"As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again!" -Scarlett O'Hara
~prettyinpink03:iconprettyinpink03: Aug 29, 2007, 3:51:10 AM
Your welcome!!! It's amazing! Absolutely perfectly breath-taking.

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